feeling better

This week is FINALLY getting better. It has been the worst week. Of course (most of you know) I had a miscarriage over the weekend.. that wasn't fun, but to top it off I spent the next 2 days in bed with the worst migraines ever and no prescription meds available. Ugh. I tried EVERYTHING.. essential oils, hot showers, hot baths, ice packs, heat packs, tons of water, nasal spray, allergy meds, caffeine, massage, chiropractor... you name it. I was thisclose to going to the ER, Monday night, when thankfully something worked and the migraine went away for several hours. I was able to get a good night's sleep only to start over with another migraine Tuesday morning. Thankfully I was able to get a prescription filled and I felt much better yesterday.



Despite all the bad stuff I will say that I really, really appreciate all the wonderful support and prayers we have gotten from everyone. It has been amazing! I was hesitant to announce the pregnancy right away but we ended up telling a few friends and family almost as soon as we found out. Then, after the early miscarriage word got out.. pretty much because we needed help from church friends when I ended up in the ER. I don't regret letting people know what is going on. The love and support has been amazing. I can't imagine going through it alone. Unfortunately, so many others have gone through the same thing and know what we're going through.



I realize I have blogged and tweeted about this a lot... I think talking/writing about it helps me process things a little better. I realize I'm not the first woman in the world to have a miscarriage. I also realize that it was very early. I know many people have gone through much, much worse. But this wasn't easy for me. This was something I had hoped I'd never experience. Thankfully I'm feeling a lot better, emotionally and physically, after several rough days.



Thank you all for sweet comments and prayers. They have meant a lot and I really appreciate it. <3 p="">

not a good day

So, last week (Tues. March 12) I found out I was pregnant with a faint line on a HPT. We were SO excited. Fast forward to Tuesday, March 19. I had my first OB appointment. They could not see much except *maybe* the tiniest little sac on the sonogram. My HGT levels were so so and my urine test was, again, positive, but still very faint. They assured me I was just very, very early but I felt something was "off". I came home and tested again.. hoping to see a darker line with my HPT. Nope, no dark line... just another faint little line a week after my first BFP. Anyway, so I've had a bad feeling for a few days now.



I woke up today and realized I was miscarrying. I thought I would handle it well but not so much. It's been a rough day of terrible cramps, bleeding and lots of tears. Ugh.



To top it off and add a little humor to an already rotten day. I went out for a hair cut and eyebrow wax to cheer myself up a little. The haircut... especially the bangs... was just not exactly what I had in mind. The eyebrow wax was lousy. My sister helped me choose a pretty blonde, L'Oreal, hair color and helped me color my hair. Oh my! I thought I was getting a pretty golden blonde color. Um, not so much... it's more of a reddish strawberry blonde which does NOT suit me.



Gee.. what a day. :(